Friday, December 30, 2005

its been too long

sitting in the truck, they were both quiet, the music sofly playing - sometimes lately words came so hard - finally she leaned over, he thought to kiss his cheek, but continued down til her head layed on his thigh -she turned slightly on her side, looked at him briefly and then closed her eyes - her hands lazily stroked his leg, his arms, while his stroked her hair, and touched at the union of her shirt and pants - he watched her, and thought of things - her fingers drifted over him, grazed his stomach and oh so briefly passed over his dick, accidentally to be sure, but it jumped when he felt it - and just then, his hand found a patch of skin, smooth and soft and he lingered, softly gliding over as much as he could reach without disturbing her.

she had felt him tense up as well, and could imagine why - it had been a long time for both of them - she felt such comfort when she was with him - so easy to be together - and she shifted slightly and her hand passed over him again - not so accidentally this time, but just a glance - she didnt linger, but felt it for the brief second - not rigid, but definitely as she remembered it - his hands continued their absent minded stroking - he had noticed her not so subtle glancing stroke, and his mind wandered, to their past, the things that had happened between them, and he felt himself swelling - and fingers traced slightly under her pants waist, and he felt her shift - he could reach her now - all of her if he wanted, and he just wondered if she wanted the same.

she seemed to stretch out, that tensing stretch we all do at times - and the arm she wasnt laying on reached out and, planned or accidentally, her hand landed right on him - swollen, straining against the pants fabric - and her fingers traced him, felt it pulsing, felt it jerk as she passed over the head - she grabbed it as well as she could, squeezing it, feeling it respond even more to her touch - his thoughts raced . . . here? now? but feeling her grasp him, his thinking stopped, he began reacting to her touch - his finger played over her breasts, the nipples becoming prominent as he stroked them, lightly pinching - and even this little caused a slight moan to escape her lips - his hand didnt stop there tho, squeezing her breasts, his fingers straying beneath the fabric to touch her now swollen nipples - and she shifted as well, her legs parting slightly, the hand she laid on finding his, holding it as he held her - her free hand, stroking him, from the head, down his shaft, and over his swollen balls and even then continued up to his pants button - and she tugged at it, got it loose and felt him rise off the seat to aid her.

his off hand tangled in her curls, his other reached downward for her - found her pants clasp, and with a flick it came apart - the sound of two zippers were evident in the cab of the truck and as she tugged the waistband of his short down, she felt his hand trace over her panties to find her mound - wet even now, but soon to get wetter - he toyed with her, his fingers playing at the edge of her panties, pushing in between her swollen lips - and as she felt him play, she reached down into his shorts - and grabbing his swollen cock, she eased it out - seeing his cock, large, slightly red, and leaking, she leaned in towards him - he felt her warm breath and looked down just as she licked at him - moans of approval came from both of them - and as she engulfed him with her mouth, his finger pushed into her - her wetness eased his way, and a second finger followed the first - her moan felt fabulous on his dick, and he tried again and again to make her moan - with great success its seemed, as she slid down onto him deeper and her moaning brought him closer.

realization of where they were brought him back to reality quickly, and as she continued stroking him, and bobbing her head, he looked around - and seeing no one, he contined his play, his fingers stroking over her clit as he pushed them into her - deeper each time - and stroking up as he withdrew, he played over her sex, itself swollen and so responsive - so long they had been without one another and she quickly felt him swelling, felt his tangled fingers tighten in her hair, and she moaned into him - seeking his release.

her pussy was squeezing his fingers and he felt her cunt pulsing around him - her tongue swirling around the head his cock did him in finally - all the sensations he had felt, the pleasures he was giving her, all combined to push him over the edge - she felt herself spasm around his probing fingers as he came - forcefully - and as she gripped his fingers inside, clamped her legs hard onto his hand, she came with him - loud groaning from them both, fainter with each breath - and slowly they knew it was at an end - not having the time normally taken to recover, he quickly tucked himself back in and she sat up next to him - smiling! having wanted, she had received - and she laid her head on his shoulder, quite content - she felt him looking at her, and still smiling, turned to him, kissing him - her lips alive; warm and soft - his arms went around her, pulled her to him and hugged her - hugged her close - one of his big hugs, and she felt comforted in his arms.

and they knew things would be okay.

Monday, December 19, 2005

it started out as a good day too!

my heart is in disbelief - what my mind has known for so long, my heart heard today

the lover i have known for these few precious years can no longer be mine - and as much as i knew it would one day come, to know it with finality is hard - not for the love lost, for it was never a love between us - it is a tearing apart of something that has meant so much to me since we found each other - of a comfort that we offered one another - we needed each other, and she no longer needs me - and as much as i want it not to be so, i cant talk her into doing anything but what it is she needs to do

and my heart is in pain - and when i talk to her, it breaks - and it is an empty feeling

Thursday, December 01, 2005

What? Me worry?

we hardly ever talk anymore - you say don't worry about it
you hardly ever answer my emails - but you tell me not to worry
it seems harder and harder to get together - dont worry about it, you say to me
it used to be that you could hardly wait before you kissed me - but im told not to worry about it
it seems you used to want me, to feel me - beside you & inside you - and that too im told not to worry about

pretty soon, i won't have anything to worry about - and you know how much i love to worry.

what will i do then? when there is no us to worry about anymore?